A friend of mine, Samar Shera, wrote on her blog, “I officially denounce Superwoman. I would rather be my version of happy than show the world I am living its dream.”
This resonates so true with me since I am now living my version of happy. To me, the simple things matter – love, joy, laughter, quiet conversations. After walking out of the rat race, its made me realize that I was never my authentic self. I was always a version of what I had to be in that very moment to get things done.
Today, as I live my version of happy, I am being true to why I am really on this earth. I am who I am. The sexy glorious me, who celebrates each day every little victory I achieve. I celebrate ME.
It’s time for every woman to celebrate who she really is. Celebrate your authentic sexy self!
When I started painting this, I wasn’t sure of my confidence in Art. I hadn’t painted properly in a while (lets say close to 2 years), and I wasn’t sure how it would turn out. The fact that I chose 2 canvases, with sizes 100 cm w x 80 cm h each, also scared me.
Trying to decipher what this painting needed consumed me. But it burnt a quiet fire that I thought had been extinguished. Very similar to a person meditating, this painting took me to a deeper level of peace and serenity, and made me tap back into my skills very subtly.
Soon, I was doing other paintings alongside this one. I kept completing the other paintings as I kept re-discovering myself through this painting. And this one kept going on :). I used to ask it … ‘hey are you ever gonna get done?’ It would respond back ‘soon darling soon. Just enjoy the journey’. And I did.
I used palette knives to build the texture, with real beach sand to build the bark of the tree. It took 5 buildups to get the effect I wanted. Each buildup took 48 hours to dry, and sometimes even more, thanks to our Dubai humid summer!
I stayed close to sunset fiery colors by using cadmium yellow, deep and light cadmium oranges, buff titanium, brown, burnt umber, brown oxide, pale gold, copper to create the shades. I haven’t used white nor reds … but yet the painting exudes the un-used shades and colors. It took 4 to 5 layers of paint before it emerged the way I knew it would. And it would demand that I paint both canvases together, layer by layer, otherwise the painting would get stubborn on me!
A friend said that it has the energy of a samurai … so she ended up naming it. But it made me realize that within each one of us is a Samurai, waiting to emerge, waiting to fight what we are meant to do, but not with violence – but with peace and serenity.
When I researched it, I found out that a Samurai followed a set of rules or a way of life known as Bushidō. Loosely analogous to the concept of chivalry, and it originates from the samurai moral values. Bushido was also influenced by Shinto and Zen Buddhism, allowing the violent existence of the samurai to be tempered by wisdom and serenity.
I guess my Samurai emerged when he needed to, brought change into my world in a form that I understood – my art. My art that brings me peace, serenity and most importantly – JOY!